Haven't posted in a few days.

I've been in really dark funk.

Really starting to second guess myself and think that H has
ignighted the flame with OW.

I have a gut instinct, but I may be wrong.

I hope I'm wrong.....

That's all I can think about.

Went to see my C on Tues. and she didn't make me feel any better.

She just left me with homework about finding out whatis good for me.

I don't know wha's wrong buut I could't even care less right now.

Told you it was a really bad one.

I don't know what hit me. I think the idea of H seeeing her again is stirring up old deep wounds.

Starting to come out of it now but still pretty down.

I don't like feeling so depressed....

I don't want to feel so desperate....

I don't want to feel so needy....

I want my life back.

I hate this life.

E


"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"

Being the calmness in the storm......