Feeling so down these last few days. I'm loneley. I have my D which I am gratefule for and the acting out is still going on - only now its after a long day at work when I pick her up from aftercare. Anyway, FA I'm sorry your D had such a hard time with daycare. I thought my D was doing all right but H has not seen or called her for 3 weeks now. He was supposed to pick her up on Tues but never showed. I thankfully called to make sure he got her and they said she was still there. The daycare worker told me she was very upset and kept asking where is my dad? Emailed H very politely what happened? and could he please notify me if he could not see her since I am working now and need suffucient notice and just got back curt email - sorry could not make it. I dont understand him. D will not talk about it and I dont mention H at all anymore to her. Thanks for telling me I'm doing a great job - I dont feel like it. I thought that after being at home for years with D that when I started work after whats happened to my M I would feel so much better about myself. The training is grueling and everyone in my class is in their mid 20's. At 40 and what I have been through and am going though as basically a single mother right now - I cant relate to them - I keep to myself. I have 2 friends who are both married SAHM's. Cant relate to them anymore - I just think why did this happen to my M - why not you? When one of them is always telling me how lousy her marriage is? I know I;m feeling sorry for myself - with the why me? I just feel so down this week after starting work and am really missing my H. I almost called him twice and almost emailed "I missed you". but I did not. I just really miss him - I am at the verge of tears again throughout the day but have managed to hold it in. I just feel so lost.
