I am having trouble with this as well. I totally found out the other night just how bad begging and crying is. As soon as I started in, he literally ran out the door. So I have made up my mind to stop the crying in front of him. I have plenty of time to do that during my alone time. It is important to keep crying and screaming, because you have to let the hurt out somehow. I just can't stand how much this all hurts.

Sara

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08