Thanks for the response... I think at first, for sure, i was having sex out of guilt. You are so right about that not being the route to take. He could feel it and it was horrible. Neither one of us got much pleasure out of it, i don't think.
I think i'm really at a point now, where i'm doing it, not because i feel guilty, but because i want to see him happy. It has made a lot if difference in my attitude towards him. While it doesn't necessarily make the sex a whole lot better for me, it does for him and I do want to make him happy.
I know that i deserve to be treated lovingly, like his W and the mother of his children, but he's not in a place right now to treat me like i deserve. I've kinda made a choice to accept that until he's ready to forgive and change, so i have to keep moving forward towards that.
thank you!! ann
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