WOW - that's all i can say... Thanks to everyone that posted and I'll try to get back to you all...
As far as the sex after the EA thing. It was only a one time thing. I do think he sees me as property because in his mind, what was once his was given to someone else (even if not physically). Now its like he's trying to mark his territory. That's what that night was about, that and i think a little part of him wanted to hurt me because he was hurting so badly. I don't think i've ever felt that hurt in my life. After that, it really didn't take me long to fogrive him. It was more a matter of doing it for myself because i couldn't hang onto it. If i did, that's all i would have thought about. I was worried he would try it again. I think that is part of the reason he does notice now when i'm not into it because he does know that he hurt me. He's never been violent towards me. A couple times, when things were really bad, right before d-bomb, he threw something at the wall a time or two, but he would never hit me or anything. Maybe i just don't want to see it, but we've been together 10 years and he's never been violent...
Thank you all for the support and ideas. Like i said, i'll get back to everyone as i have a chance. Thank you all!
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
