H with MLC

[Jack_Three_Beans]

You want to know AND you really do not want to know.

What you want, is for your H to tell you "No there is no one else." But more than that you want to know that he is telling the truth. That there absolutely is no one else.

So right now when they say, "There is no one else." You don't believe them, and with good reason.

You also want to be right. A sick as that sounds you want to be right about an affair, as if it will make everything make sense.
Don't get me wrong discovering an affair is a watermark here in MLC Land. It is one of the make it or break it mile markers for you.

You go through a whole range of emotions and you get set back to almost zero again. Despair, rage, confusion...all over.

Right now your imagination, is making monsters of the shadows in your closet. Those shadows aren't doing anything but hanging out. Do you NEED to turn the light on and find out if they really are monsters or just a coat on the chair? Turning the light on might expose the truth...but how comfortable are you going to be with a monster in your closet?

Sadly, get used to the idea of an affair, it is common enough.
And believe me, whatever decision you make right now about what you are going to do if your H has an OW, you are going to re-evalute it if you discover he really has one.