Thats All true, All of it. You took the words and thoughts right from me.
My C says just make sure I don't do anything vindictive or out of anger just to spite her.

I've cooled off. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I think I've detached because a week ago I would do anything to bend over backwards for her. Now I feel good. The doom and gloom is gone. Feels wierd? Different?

Going to lawyer this afternoon just to get some advice.
I'll check back in later.