Thank you Transformer, ba065, One Day and dry_heat! It is so nice to be with people who understand. I can see how these boards would get addictive. I really really appreciate all your encouragement.
I acknowledge that I'm stronger that when H first left. And I'm strong when H is not around, but I hate that I turn to mush when he is around and it feels like all my DB-ing resolutions go out the window. I so miss him but not the drama!
I feel like you guys know me so well - I LOVE to have plans and rules!!! Note to self - be more flexible. I've used the 30-day rule before to stop me in moments of weakness calling H to ask him the most ridiculous things just to hear his voice. Its a pretty stupid rule because I dont know what I'd do if I got to the end of 30 days with no contact - but it helps to have something to aim for. I'm trusting that you guys will be able to give me input when I need to adapt and re-evaluate.
