Poor W had a really bad night at work. Ended up having to do some emergency crises C'ing. I told her not to worry that I would make arrangements with S and I. Sent her a nice TM just saying, Don't worry about S, I'll make arrangements, you do what you do best.
When she arrived late tonight, she asked how I was doing with AA, told her great. Having a good time with sober people. She initiated a big hug and told me she was so proud of me. Nice to feel and hear that for sure.
One thing that is weird, is that I have been warned to not pursue anything with women, that becoming sober my libido would fly through the roof and that I'm just confused right now. I have found actually the opposite. I don't really seem to be looking at women that way. I really hope this passes.
But I noticed with W first. I'm not really attracted to her anymore. I don't know if that has to do with the A, or no booze, or what. I think she is a sexy women, but I think that is because I can recall our past intimacy, however, I just don't really feel much towards her sexually. Probably to early to tell, but thought I should tracking it just in case this is an issue with the A and not the drink.
Who knows, may never have to ask and answer these questions. Just sort of playing scrabble with my head right now.
