I called MIL (a 180?). Went OK. Told her I wanted to make things better between us (didn't cast or accept blame) after all she is my H's mother & S's Gmother and not matter what the outcome of sitch I wanted her & I to get along. She cried and said she didn't hold anything against me and respected me and am glad that I called her. Said I respected her too. Also asked her advice on sitch {note: she has 6 kids and 4 have been through at least 1 D and I don't have mom to ask advice of}(she got distant) and said she really didn't have any advice and didn't know what all was going on and that it was between H & myself. She agreed that it takes 2 people to get to this point in our M. She said we had a lot of time invested in our M and would like to see things work out but also told me that I was young enough, decent looking and smart that I could still go on and have a good life (huh?). Asked her what would be wrong with giving things another try now that we both have our eyes open? After all, wouldn't it be better to teach our S's that if something starts going wrong in a relationship that it is better to work on it instead of throwing it out and starting another? She said she hadn't thought about it that way. I told her that I truly love her S and want to give things a try and make things work. I hope H isn't upset that I called his Mom for advice.

Called SIL after MIL conversation to let her know how things went and found out SIL and BIL (H's little brother & W) are my angels that paid for my years membership to the gym.

I've cried so much today that I've almost gone through a box of tissue and my eyes are red. I'm exhausted from all the crying.

H and I have been through hell these past few years:
8/03 - My mom dies
9/04 - Hurricane Ivan messes up rental property in FL
7/05 - Hurricane Dennis messes up rental property & sets repairs made from Ivan back months.
10/05 - Start construction on dream house.
10/05 - H started A with OW
12/05 - S19 (17 at time) almost killed in auto accident (lots of recovery)
3/06 - H's dad dies the same day he gets a major promotion (with tons of responsibilites)
4/06 - Move into dream house
5/06 - Rush to FL and buy new furnishings & put rental property back on market.
9/06 - 5/07 - S19 & S15 give me hell all school year and almost didn't graduate & pass.
11/07 - Proof of A & OW and H moves out

UNCLE!!! I give! I need a break! H got to have his OW and his fantasy world and I've been dealing with reality and all the S@@t it hands out. Calgone take me away!!!!