well, all hell broke loose, it is over and done

[cat03]

some weeks are better than others, this is one of the not so great.
Maybe because of our talk the other day, H hasn't tried to call me as often, last night he never even txt me nor call me for 9hrs, very unlike him, and it was specially bothersome because in the past 3 days we had 2 conflicts due to him not contacting me and me know knowing if he was ok. It is also scary since he is in law enforcement and there is always the chance something can happen to him.

I was freeting some, but I know it is not in my hands, he needs to come to me, I can't force him to do anything, but I believe I had the right to at least say for once how I was feeling.
I usually wait for him to make the first move, but I txt him this morning, it felt unnatural, but I believe it is something I need to work on, to not wait for him to extend the olive branch all the time. He didn't answered but he called me and we are having lunch at my workplace.
I want to be relaxed, be a safe place, not make him feel like he needs to talk R and that there is something bothering me, I mentioned it to him briefly last night (after a call late at night from him).
we have C tomorrow, we can talk then.