Pffft. You're too smart to kid yourself like that.
In what way am I kidding myself? Hmmm...perhaps I should note that FSG grew up on the city streets and his "scene" would be hip-hop/rap and his last LTR was with a woman who was 5'9"/190 and had short spikey blond hair and tattoos covering one calf and half her back. Remember his sexual ideal is Anna Nicole Smith.
Let's Review My Men Since Separation:
Teddy: Was member of Irish/Italian gang featured in West Side Story. Told me he majored in Frisbee and mushrooms in college.
NG: Semi-famous artist in Detroit Punk/Garage Rock scene. Hangs with women who vibe like younger versions of Deborah Harry.
GP: Born in projects. Toured with Parliament. Semi-professional athlete. Twelve year relationship with female body builder.
In summary, I only seriously date men who are more experienced and more "street" than me, so that's why I say it's a "conspiracy" or a choice when we interact like goofy romantic 7th graders. FSG is a couple years younger than me so we have more of a peer relationship than I had with GP but they both laugh at me when I try to act tough because relative to them I am Miss Molly the library girl.
My sister is currently in a mutually "madly in love" relationship with a seriously sexy 53 year old man who was a member of one of the semi-famous pre-punk bands that toured with Iggy Pop. He became a Christian after quitting drugs/drinking and is only having pre-marital sex with my sister because she needs it regular for post-cervical cancer reasons. They have "conspired" to have a basically sub/dom "Taken In Hand" type relationship and my sister has been semi-useless as a business partner lately because she wanders about in a dopamine haze concerning herself with such matters as how cool it was that she was able to purchase ruffled panties in an adult woman size on sale at K-Mart.
Okay, I was trying to make some kind of point here/ Did I succeed? - lol
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
