HELP!! my 25 y/o H walked out... maybe mlc? HELP!!

[darkestangel]

I still swing back and forth between being so angry at him, and being okay in the situation. I'm still so hurt, and I guess that's to be expected.

H called yesterday, asking me what my plans for July were like. When i said I didn't know, he said, "Well, me and OW are going on vacation to Canada, so I'm going to need you to watch D3 that weekend."

I was like, "That is 6 months away. Why are you telling me now?" I swear, it felt like he was just trying to piss me off on purpose, trying to rub my face in it. Throughout our marriage, H NEVER wanted to go anywhere! I tried to go places for our anniversary/ birthday, but even places within driving distance, he would complain and pout about. Now he's taking OW on vacation to another country? GRRRRRR.....

H keeps telling me he doesn't love me, that he's moved on and so should I. H has never even mentioned the idea of trying to work on our marriage. maybe I should just give up. H tells me how happy he is (GIDDY was the word he used on myspace) now that he has all this time for himself, and no pressures. Meanwhile, I'm left to be the full-time single parent of our d3, while trying to keep the house running smoothly and look for a second job.

It's so disheartening. These past 4 weeks (it was 4 weeks today) have seemed SO LONG, and it seems like he's just so far away from me now. I know in the grand scheme of things, 4 weeks isn't much- at least, in comparison with some of you who have gone through months and even years of DBing.

Is it too late for me to DB? Should I just give up? I only see him now when he picks up D3 on Saturdays and when he drops her off on Mondays.

I worry that it's too late. I worry that his affair with OW might actually be a longlasting relationship. I worry that his reasons for leaving me are real and tangible. I worry that it might be many many months before he might even consider working on our marriage. Will I see him the same? I worry that we'll end up divorced, as he so strongly declares that he wants. I worry that he's actually truly happier without me.