Get Me on a Smoother Ride.....Need Advice, Part 11

[SueS]

I just have a few minutes before I head off with H & D3 to H's dad's.

Not feeling good tonight. H forgot to shut down the computer this morning. One of his emails popped up. Yes, I was compelled to look. I looked at all his saved messages. All 4 pages of them.....since the first of June. They've been saying ILY since at least June. It makes me sick, as he introduced me to her and her husband on July 4th. There was a message in the early am of July 4th from her in regards to seeing him on the 3rd. SICK! I could see the progression of the A through the emails. She's told her family in CA about the A and about my H. Some are supportive of her. I could see through the emails how they've gone from knowing that it probably wouldn't work between them to now wanting to be together forever and not caring about anyone else. I also saw a message referring to a night that she realized that she no longer wanted her M. I'd say it was the first time OW and my H had sex. I'm sick.

I know.....2x4. I shouldn't have looked. It was like a car wreck. I knew I should stop looking, but I couldn't turn away.

So, off I go for a weekend with a man that I know has been heavily involved with OW for longer than I suspected.

I'll try to get on over the next few days.

SueS