I feel like I'm settling well into detachment. H is so far removed from me and so much a stranger that I really feel like I've let go of him. Having said that I have been sad today for some reason. It's this whole custody/visitation thing. I can handle all of this crap but why our children have to be put through it is beyond me. It is so sad. And I am SO stressed and worried about making the wrong decisions. I feel like I am going to set back my DB'ing efforts by really fighting for what I want. I am so worried about this, but I have to put what I believe is best for my kids first. I just wish he would snap out of this! I wish the aliens would return my H before he does any more damage! I know I'm going against what I said in the first sentence about letting go...but it's more like I've let go of the guy he is now. I still feel like old H is in there somewhere. Time time time. I'm going to go read some more from my "Good Parenting Through Your Divorce", hopefully I'll find some of my answers in there. J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
