H and I own business together, still talking

[grid, lost]

The guys are asking me if I want to take their OT calls. I'm taking sunday it's double time. The windstar was a bank repo

, t

The post about your friend was interesting, showed that H really cared at one time. Hopefully friend didn't suffer much, cancer can be so painful.

Double time, wow, you will have the finances caught up in no time on that one. Now becareful and don't over work (hours/wk.) yourself. Remember stitch in chest need lots of time to set and heal.
I have not talked with Bill's wife yet. I so hope he did not suffer alot. Spoke with him just couple days before Thanksgiving and he was back painting. Planning to mark a couple days in Jan to go visit and first needed to call for best days. I am really in shock and so sad.
H, the painting example is how he treated me for 20yrs.and I same for him!!! That sorta love does not die or leave. WE had way to much of once in a life time stresses hit our house all at once. Then he had the OW who always gets involved with guys 20 ++ her age. So OW said come I can save you. All I can hope for is this spring the fire can return somehow. Going to give him a birthday gift. B day is Feb 8th and plan to have Retro on wings. I am going to ask H to come to Retro at very least so i can have closuer. Then I guess marriage will be a marriage of convience for us. Don't know what else to do. The pain is to much for me. I so admire those who can go at this DB, etc. for a couple yrs. Of course, H left 10-2006, so it has been quite a bit of time. All my friends say if OW had not done what she did we would have worked out the M problems. NO one doubts this. They are not just saying that so I feel better either.
Funny most of the Woman here on boards after about my time start to do what I am doing, question all of this. Just how long does one keep on with only hope?? See my name does fit, I'm lost.
later,
grid, lost