Starting to get it.... my 3rd thread

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Ok... well i feel better and a little less crazy, thank you all.

Let's see if i can do this all on one post

SBD - His dreams aren't any kind of issue for me. I have dreams all the time. Sometimes we are together, sometimes I'm with someone else or he is, sometimes i have purple hair and am falling through space... they are just dreams... not a big deal. What happens is that it makes him think about stuff. About how he says i deserve better (hasn't said it in a while, but it's obviously still there) and how someone else might sweep me off my feet. I can't control this, it just sucks that he takes it out on everyone. FWIW, he sent me an email just a bit ago apologizing for his attitude yesterday and said he'd tell the girls he's sorry later. I appreciated that and told him. I also told him that everyone's entitled to a few bad days and that I hope he knows that he can talk to me when he needs to about anything.

The first tattoo conversation came up when my sister got her first one a few years ago. We were talking about it. H said he'd like one eventually and I said i might at one point, maybe something simple like a flower or something. When his dad got his 4th Ws name tattooed on his arm wsa the first time i told him that i'd never do that. We were both in agreement at that point. It's come up a few times since then and I've always had the same reaction to it whether we are talking about me or someone else, that I'd never do it.

Funny what you said about a picture or something to make you think of W. That's actually what sparked the conversation. A guy on the show was getting a whole bunch of flowers done, one for each of the women that played a role in his life: mother, girlfriend, aunt, grandmother, etc. I told H that i thought that was sweet and a much better way than the names specifically... I would do something like that if i decide to get one.

Blindsided - i don't know one way or another about luck, but I don't think its a good choice for me. I just don't like the idea.

Dom - Thank you. I felt like i was put in this place where saying anything was wrong. No matter the reason for not wanting it, it would come down to my not loving him enough. That's exactly what he was doing. I don't know that I'll bring it up because part of it probably came from his mood, but i know for sure that next time I will.

Craig - thanks. I agree that he has some growing that needs to be done. He has always has insecurities, but they have just been magnified by EA. It's something I'm learning to accept and deal with until he's ready for that growing. Can't change him, just my reaction to him!
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H also has an issue with not wanting to put the family window stickers on my truck. I don't want stickers on my car... is that so wrong? nope... hehe. He wouldn't put them on his.