I know it sounds like I'm pursuing, but part of our problem was that I didn't initiate anything - W did. She got sick of doing it. So now I'm trying to balance letting her decide to come together with me showing her that I'm willing and able to initiate and plan. I did this initially, stopped for awhile, and will probably start again - just doing 180s and seeing what works/what doesn't.
Would like to try retrouvaille, but she is NOT willing to do yet. Have it on the back burner though.
Since W isn't over OP, I feel like I need to make myself attractive too, so that's what I'm doing. I also feel that when we were going to MC, even though the C was bad they called W on her wishy-washy behavior and she responded in a positive manner. Since we stopped going, she's slid back into her old ways. I'm hoping a good MC will provide more clarity and a feeling of trust that is good for both of us.
Will see - can only try and see what happens and change plans if needed.
I'm truly seeing the rollercoaster ahead of me now and boy am I conflicted! I know everyone here understands that already - I'm just beginning to appreciate.
