Two days ago you said that you have things under control, are detaching and eating right - feeling better. You words are not the words of a man that's detached and letting his W go. What you're posting does not give the picture of a man that has things under control and has an improved attitude.
I'll say it again - PLEASE go to your Dr. and tell him/her what's going on and get some help. Yes, you've helped a lot of people and know a lot of stuff about DB-ing, but the people who are urging you to get help have been around the block a few times too. Some of us may know a duck when we hear it quacking! I'm saying this because I've known you to be a good man who's been here when other's needed you. Your friends are trying to be here for you now and tell you that you need professional help.
If you don't believe me or anyone else, please listen to Amy. Think about it.. would she tell you to seek help if she didn't honestly believe that advice is needed?
