I tell myself this time it's different. She is acountable for her whearabouts. She is not making excuses to "go out" She is not claiming to spend the night at her "friends" house. when I spend the weekend with the kids, She goes to Her familys house, This is true. So there's No psyical "affair" happening that I can tell. She tells me point blank. If there was she would use it to get me to react. I know she would throw it in my face if there was anything there She would use it to get me to fly off the handle. She says That door has been slammed shut, Never to be opened again. She really screwed him over last time and left him with a thousands of dollars in bills along with a ton of other headaches, Broken heart etc... Whaaaa.... She claims he hates her.. I just can't understand WHY????? she continues to contact him? I tell myself there just venting to each other. Then I tell myself she's trying to mend the relationship with him so He'll take her back.So she can Step out of our marrige to her waiting limosine.
I am truely going nuts. I am. Just last night She invited me up for cookies she made and asked me to stay for dinner, Bathtime, bedtime and storytime. Then I get my coat and leave. Not a word said. I leave and "give her space" When deep down I tell myself "She's probably on the phone with him right now as I'm walking to my car... Maybe not.Wait, Yes she is. No she's not. I bet she is.No she's not. Come on be rational. Your bieng played for a fool Mike" Every ounce of my bieng wants to lash out at her and Say WTF is the "plan". This indecision is killing me.
Ughhhhh.. I think I just need to vent. Thanks for listening.
