Sir, just lately I feel he is 'getting it', that he does actually believe me that I haven't cheated. Still, he asks a lot....
D6 is very ill today. High fever and feeling pretty bad. We have an appt with a specialist coming up soon. This, I think, isn't related to her other tummy issues, just a rotten virus. I enjoyed having her home and the snuggle time, but I do want her better, my big girl.
H and I talked a bit today, being home with D6 together. I asked about Florida. I got "I want you to go but am afraid you will get your hopes up for us.". Um, ok. He wants to be friends. Claims I won't 'lose' him if we get divorced, that we'll be friends and co-parents and we do best as friends. He still isn't physically with OW (I am choosing to trust him), but I didn't ask about talking with her on the phone. I think I know that answer anyway.
We hashed up the past hurts but in a good way, I think. Overall, it was good. One of those talks where it doesn't get you anywhere, but helps you dig into the hurt a bit. I told him I missed him, that I stand for us, that I would want a 'new' marriage. That it would be hard, but I see us doing it. He admitted he is terrified to try 'us' again. I told him I was scared as well.
LO: H is scared to ask about you. He has no right to, and probably doesn't want to hear you are moving on.
