well, all hell broke loose, it is over and done

[ntl]

Kel, I do see he is trying consciously, acknowledges that his guilt is getting in the way and actually told me last night "this can't last forever, I will get over this" (I was the one who used to tell him that when he'd look at me in despair and ask me if the pain was ever going to end).
God's strength is amazing, I wouldn't be this composed otherwise.

I agree! Just when you think you can't take another moment and that you are completely 100% done, you find strength from somewhere. And strangely, sometimes, when things are really bad and the look in your eyes says "Despair has moved in and it ain't movin' out" your H will find a way to make you strong.

Love, human love, God's love, the love deep inside that teaches us to be better people is a beautiful, transformative thing.