Frank, You will have a hard time believing this, but my first thought if I read that post from someone would be this:
What the hell are you doing going to Rome if money is an issue?
(No lie, but that's just me.)
Then, as I read I thought, "You are scared, and rightfully so. Thank God this man has time to get his stuff together, because there is great potential here."
And finally, I smiled as I read it, because I reminded myself that it was written by YOU, and I knew that it must have been hard for you to dive off of the "DB God" pedestal and admit some very hard truths. Now I know that you can move forward. You put it all out there, and guess what? I am willing to bet that people here still respect and admire you.
I know I do. All the more.
P.S. There are no DB Gods and Goddesses. Geesh, even Michelle makes/made mistakes in her marriage. It is not about not making mistakes, it is about what you do to correct them. For the record, I am not implying that you thought of yourself as one. I am just remarking on the fact that you were afraid to admit this stuff was going on because you felt as if you failed not only yourself but your loyal friends and readers.