I'm sorry you've had to join us here. We've all been there, we all know the constant crying, the feelings of desperation, the desires to fix it NOW. You've come to the right place my friend.
There are some good things here still. Finding positive things to focus on will help you cope. Getting a positive attitude will help both of you cope. So some positives I see; 1) You are still living in the same house. 2) She backed off the divorce process. 3) There is some physical contact, specifically kissing. 4) You've recognized you need to do some work.
So it's time to focus on you and rebuilding you. If you haven't, go and purchase Divorce Remedy today and start to read it. Do not share it with her in any way. Next find some ways to give her space. The last thing she needs is pressure, hence the push for physical separation. What she's probably really asking for is space so she feels emotionally safe.
So get to reading as soon as you can. You'll end up needing to read the book a couple of times and then refresher reads on certain subjects from time to time. Once you've read the book you'll want to start to do some introspection to really see where BT can be an even greater BT.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
