MLC's come home-part 2

[cagzmom]

wierd thing happened today - i think i did it right.
H text he was getting my d11 signed up for softball. (good for him...whatever!)

Then I didn't respond immediately so he called - left me a voice mail. I didn't call back till about an hour later...his message was about sizes for her.

in the conversation i was able to express to him that d11 really didn't like seeing her dad kiss ow. it wasn't huge as she told me she turned her head...but it was something she wished he wouldn't do. Of course he had some lame bs and apologized to me..I said don't apologize to me apologize to yuor daughter.

so i took care of what needed to be handled and called him back with the answers. (in regards to softball). he was all "Down and sad" so I said.."Whats wrong p?" lots of i dont know, not a good day bla bla bla...I said you know I am your friend - at least I hope you do..he said yeah....then openned up (took a little while like he was almost being disloyal to ow...or that is how I felt!!)

Anyway- he goes on about how he doesn't like himself right now, this and that and sad and stuff. I listened and didn't try to give answers (WHICH IS NEW for me.) Of course bimbo got brought up that he knows she can't make him happy - and that he wants to do things right this time.." Anyway I let him unload a little.

I asked him about his meds - he said it didn't seem like it was working. I just said be careful...he said he didn't think he was where he was this summer (suicide attempt). He said he was compinsating or somthing this summer-I said what I remember was a pretty mean, arrogant person - adn you were making lots of money ... he said yeah i know.

told him i cared, i will always be his friend. that was it. he did talk about bimbo how she would handle his phone call..that she would say thigns are great look at this and that...I said well what is good in your life and he said d11. I said that is true. Then i said P you have everything you wanted. You have no responisbilites, you aren't married (in your mind), your free, you have ow you should be happy...he said yeah I know.

he said that she knows his financial secrets (he is really broke etc.) he said he wants to be open with her and not hide things from her like he did with me. i did say - i dont know what happened, I am still kinda confused but i wont push you on it. he said..neither do i...

again i said - just remember i care and if you need me i am here...and we left it at that.

i don't know what he is up to. It has been awhile since HE has openned up to me. (i think October).We have talked -- i have always told him i will be his friend- but today was different.

he likes her/loves her whatever he is in a good place with her.
she knows what is really going on -so there are no secrets.
they don't do anything - so she is ok with sitting around.
he is gone...
or is there hope??!!!

good grief i hate this!