The New Adventures of Supermom...Part 3

[JennyF]

Hey,
D is feeling better today. Still a bit tired, but on the mend.
blindsided, you do whatever is in your heart with regards to your rings. Maybe one day when you know you're going to see him you could 'forget' to wear them. See if he notices. If he does, you could just say you took them off for a moment to put lotion on or something and forgot to put them back on. Would be interesting to see his reaction anyway.

Nothing new to report on my end. Which is a good sign I guess.
H has been quite civil with me. Came over yesterday to see the kids for a couple hours and popped out to the store to get a few things we needed. I know it makes him feel important when he can do this.

I've been expecting him to send me a schedule for a few days now of what he expects his visitation and overnights with D to look like...but he hasn't sent me anything...and I haven't asked. He seems to have accepted that I'm not going to be letting D go for overnights during the week...for now anyway.

He has been a bit nicer the last 2 days...a tiny bit more thoughtful. REALLY little things...like last night when he offered to go the store for me (I was going to go). He left while I was giving D a bath and he locked the front door before he left...hasn't done that once before now. I know that might seem really minor, but I'm supposed to "THINK SMALL" right??
Anyway, I'm taking this opportunity to DB my butt off. He is going to see me GAL. Now that the holidays are over and I got my S's first out of the house visit done with, I'm ready to put my emotions away in front of him.

I plan on taking a meditation course, so when I find out the dates I'll TELL him that is the night he can come over and spend it with S & D.

Also, my best friends S turns 3 this weeked. My D turns 3, 2 weeks later (and yes our newborns are only 1 month apart).
We usually have a joint b-day part for them, but we decided not to this year. My friend and I didn't want the hassle for one...but also because we didn't want to deal with the politics that would come with H and the whole sitch. He had already asked us to keep his schedule in mind when we planned it (he's out of town in Vegas for one weekend....incidently this is the same trip last year that H began is R with OW...or CFB as I like to call her).
So they are having a little family b-day party for him this weekend and of course we'll be going. I told H this and it was obvious that he wasn't invited. I could kind of see the wheels turning in his head as he absorbed it all. I really wonder if he feels the loss of not being included in these things? We have a really really close group of friends and he is drifting slowly away. I really wonder if and when this will start to affect him.

Anyway, not for me to worry about!!
I'm feeling good today...PMA is on the rise!
J~