Piecing is hard...should I even do it?

[ntl]

I also remain a bit fearful, It will take us both a few months to put our defense walls down hon))))))))))))

I hear you! Everyday, every interaction, I have to tell myself: Do the loving thing, do the loving thing! At the end of the day, when I put my head on the pillow, I can rest easy because I know that I am working hard to bring loving interaction in to my life.

I can CHOOSE...every day, every hour, to be mean, spiteful, hurtful, resentful (AND NOT ONE PERSON WOULD BLAME ME!!!), but I am choosing a different path. One that requires me to set aside my hurt, my anger, my pain and to focus on love. And my soul feels bigger, brighter, stronger, and more beautiful because of it.

If I let my H's affairs make me a mean, resentful, depressed person, I've let the affairs beat me. And I am a fighter, not a loser, so that ain't happenin'.

We'll make it! One way or another!!!

Thank you for keeping tabs on me and helping me!

Regards,

ntl