The End or Just the Beginning? Part 3

[blindsided1]

Atlas,
I think you are doing such a wonderful thing not just for yourself, but for your son. I am a daughter of an alcoholic father. Let me tell you from the childs point of view, your R with your son will forever be changed. It's up to you to make that for the better or for the worse. I am in no way judging you. I just want you to know that because of my Father's alcoholism, even though I loved him, I couldn't tolerate the drinking and therefore put up a wall. My Father wasn't always a drinker. It started in his early 30's. By the time he was 57, he had schirosis (sorry, didn't spell check) of the liver and had to be put on a transplant list. Only then did he quit drinking and smoking. Let me tell you that I didn't believe that he had quit because I was soooo used to him lying about it. But, he had. He had turned his life around, quit drinking and quit smoking around the age of 58. He died at 59. Not from the schirosis necessarily, but because his heart just couldn't take it anymore. I miss my Father everyday. It just passed 5 years since he died. Now, unfortunately, my brother is married to an alcoholic. They have 2 children 7 & 10 who have been suffering for years because of their Mother's affliction. Again, I am not judging. The reason I am telling you all this is because I want you to see how much more wonderful your life and the life of your son and possibly your W can be. It is a hard disease to overcome. But, I know countless people who have done it. It takes a lot of willpower and determination. You have everything to make this happen for. I wish you the best of luck on your journey into your new and better life. I pray that your M resolves itself for the better, either way. You can do this. I'm sorry if I have stepped on toes or in any way made you feel uncomfortable. I just wanted to share my story since it applies. Please keep us posted as to your progress in both areas. And, thank you for sharing such a personal issue so openly.