Long and Bumpy Road #3

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I woke up with a really good PMA today. I never heard from H yesterday and probably that is best. I had some time to process what the L said yesterday and how best to handle this situation.

I ran into a woman at the market last night. Her daughter is on the same soccer team as H's daughter. She asked me if he was ok....? I asked why. She said that at the game over the weekend H was obnoxious and looked like he was out of it. Of course he was, he was drinking. The drinking and the pills are his downfall. I really notice he makes his bad choices when doing those. Makes his behavior over the weekend explainable.

Jennys questions to me have really made me think and soul search. I do not want H back...not this way. Not until he cleans up and is ready to make some changes. Sure, its not the way I want it and it hurts but his lack of integrity, lack of commitment and his erratic behavior is not what the kids and I need.

I guess now is figuring a parenting plan for our baby that works for both of us. Its so sad, but like my C said yesterday...he is a sinking ship.