Hi. Haven't posted in a while. Everything is going fine. I've been really busy here with the kids, and spending the evenings with H.
H still sends loving emails from work, calls home during the day, etc. We have lunch together sometimes, and we spend out nights cuddling on the couch. It's a nice change from a year ago.
We are getting ready to move to our next base. Well, we don't move until October, but I'm getting ready by gathering bubble wrap and such to pack our expensive collectibles, and things in. The gov. movers usually end up breaking things, so I figured I'd take extra precaution.
Older D is doing great in pre-school. Since things with H and I have been going so well in the past few months I see a HUGE difference in her behavior, it's gotten so much better.
Younger D just turned 18 months. She's a joy. I notice that I've become a more hands on mommy since things have been going better. During our "bad" times, I kind of shut down I guess. Now, I'm a better person all around.
Weight loss is going slow. Still want to lose about 40 pounds. I belong to the enlisted spouses club on base, and will be involved in a book club soon!
I have been worried about SARS. Anyone else? Being in HI, we have lots of people coming here, pretty scary. Hopefully H won't have to travel for a while. I just read they think it will kill millions. H got sick after coming home from Korea last week and I was freaking out thinking it was SARS.
Some history... I had SARS. Well, it was called ARDS (acute respiratory distress syndrome). It's the same thing, just started a different way. That's what I had when I got sick several years ago. I got a bacterial infection in my throat that turned septic, then got pneumonia, then ARDS. So, it culminated in the same things that SARS does, but SARS starts with a virus. I'm so scared of catching it. I remember being on the respirator, HORRIBLE. I was in a coma for a while, mostly drug induced so I wouldn't fight the vent, and my chance of survival with Sepsis and ARDS was less than 10%. I'm lucky to be alive and to have had my two beautiful babies. I lost my baby that I was carrying when I got sick. I also have bad lungs now because of what I had, but mostly it's severe asthma. Gosh, I'm just so scared of being that sick again.
This may seem morbid, or maybe not, depends. I've decided to start a journal for my kids. I want to write about my life, their lives, etc. Just so they will have something to always remember. I became pretty paranoid after being so sick, I thought that each time I went into the hospital to give birth that I'd get sick and die. Each time I get a bad cold I think to myself "am I getting it again?" It was such a freak thing that I had. Only 1 in 150,000 had what I did in the US at that time. I was written up in a medical journal while I was in the rehab. facility because, astonishingly (spelling?) I recovered so quickly from the paralysis I got after the coma. They said something happened when I was given steroids and other meds that caused a muscle wasting illness called Rhabdomyolysis. So, when I woke up, I was paralyzed from the neck down. But, with therapy at the rehab center (Thanks NRH in DC!!) I came back almost 100%.
Sorry to go on and on, but I couldn't help it. Anyway, I hope everyone is doing ok, and had a happy Easter! Can't believe it's almost May!! H and I smile at each other a lot and thank God that we've come so far in the past year!
