Visiting wise friends on the board, catching up with you, gleaning insight.
You are so cool -- I am really jazzed by your honesty about everything, including sex. Yep. I relate, it's hard. It's very hard to let go and be vulnerable and open again. KML is right -- we punish ourselves by withholding -- but we've been axed, so we're wary. It's hard.
Me, I've been self-absorbed lately, my sitch took a turn to OUCHVILLE -- other chick back in the picture, H moved out again (second time). Big set-back.
But I am surfacing faster than last time. Not gonna drown this time.
Don't wanna go into my stuff here, but just want to say how much I appreciate your sharing about being scared and mistrustful, as well as about recovery and rainbows. It's all in the soup, you know?
I beat myself up whenever I get freaked out, but that just doesn't help anything.
Reading your posts and everyone's replies, I just feel better. I so totally relate to the fear, obsessing, anger, hurt at all the betrayals, wondering if the pain will ever completely heal.
And then the hard climb uphill alone DB-ing -- when do we get the award?
At the podium, gold statue in hand: "I want to thank Teach and all my friends on the BB, and Michele, for their loving collaboration..."
Dream on.
Anyway, hon, I just want to thank you for your forthrightness and sharing. You really, really, really are helping me.
