Mopsey, It's quite alright to lose patience every now and then. But, it's now time to pull those boot straps up tight and stand up straight and look ahead to what you need to do to heal from this situation. Your h has his own healing to do in his own time, just as you do.
Please do not ever assume that he's having the time of his life. This guy sounds as miserable as they come. Yes, they can have periods of sanity and the depression veil lifts, but it doesn't stay lifted for very long before they are tossed about again in depression. Stop and think about it, if he's depressed around you and his family, what type of person is he around outsiders? The masks that they put on can't remain that way for very long as it takes an awful lot of energy to appear to others something different than what they really are deep down inside. So, scrub those assumptions way and look to tomorrow as a new day, new adventures and go from there.
Try to find some inner strength to help you through this rough patch.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
