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Thanks Sara,

She did go to c w/me but not for us. She does think she may be depressed. I did tell the c about db and dr, and at the end i asked after knowing my sitch if she could reccomend a book. She said 7 princapals to make a marrage work, John Gottman.


W made an appointment in 1 week for her and we made an app in 2 weeks for us. now i regret not making one for myself but i will call tomarrow (I think i need this also)(My heart has been hurting more lately). After c on way home i asked if om new she went to c and she said no. I said no more and smiled inside.

Thurs was c and Fri i went back to Fargo for job interview, It went very well. I want to work somewhere else but not for less money. I hope they thought it was good also.

Fri night we were going to new pizza place thats opening on monday. Familys of employes (d20) eat free friday. Talking to w on my way hame she wasnt going to go, to much to do (yeh right!). She changed her mind at the last min. I think d17 talked to her. Pizza went good, we also brought grandson to see mom at work. My w looked hot that night, more than normal.
That night i woke at 300 couldnt sleep again. I was obsessing about how good she looked so i texted her:

"u can get mad @ me if u want but i'm going to tell u anyway. U looked absolutley amazing last night. I totally loved that purple horrasontal stripe on u and the neclace topped it off! U were smoken! Just wanted to share 1 of my feelings with u. Have a great day at work, don't let m get to ya. See ya later!"
The next day at work she texted me "Wish u had talked like that 8 months ago it makes me sad have a good day"

I took s8 and d12 fishing that night, no fish just good conversations.

Sun not much sleep again, pretty much tired and grumy today. w took s8 and d12 to swim at hotel.

Now for my thoughts:

my wife wants to seperate, she even suggested me move in w/d20 who is having tough time with xbf.
She has commented that om wont come here or move here if im still in the house.
She is getting on my nerves by telling me i should do something w/kids. I couldnt hold my toung and replied that she was blind right now.
She told me that her thoughts in her head where like a rubberband ball and u cant get a single one to unravel.

After her description of her thoughts i thought of how to describe mine: Picture a whirl wind with papers blowing around, each paper is a thought. No make it a hurricane and my wife is swept away and im supposed to look happy galing when she blows by every now and then. I see my thoughts blowing by and can only read a bit of them before another goes by. I've got this crappy clipboard that only holds a couple papers for a short time then they blow away again.
I thought you guys and gals might appreciate my analagy.

I really want to go to c now, i feel like i need to to keep my sanity.
I have started the book c suggested.

Hope everyone has a great Monday!

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