The New Adventures of Supermom...Part 3

[JennyF]

Thanks blinsided and hope2workitout.

"everything is subject to change. Your change might just be 72 hours away."

I love this!! Thanks.

Today was rough from the get-go.

My D woke up at 7:15...throwing up all over her bedroom floor. There is a flu going around and she's got it.
The poor thing sat on the couch all day. This meant that H couldn't take her to his Mom's for their family get together. He did take S though.

I have to back up a little here....I found out last night that H wasn't at a friends 30th b-day party because he was at a b-day part for OW 3 hrs away with her family. Great...he's meeting family. Anyway, so this morning I called him at 10:30 to tell him D was sick and she probably wouldn't be going. I have no idea where he was or who he was with...I don't care.

He then called me a couple hours later to see how D was and to discuss the arrangements for S. Near the end of the conversation he could tell I was shaky. I was trying SO HARD not to get emotional but I got quiet and sniffly. He actually said, "are you ok?" He hasn't asked me that in a long long time. I said, "I'm ok. I'm sorry, I got a little emotional". He said, "He'll be fine (meaning S)". I said I know...and then I said, I'm fine and good-bye.

When he came to get S I was feeding him...must be the hormones but nursing always makes me emotional. I got him all bundled up and in his car seat and had tears streaming down my face the whole time. For the first time in a long time H actually looked like had a tiny bit of empathy. He kept trying to make eye contact with me and I wouldn't look at him. I gave S a kiss and H said, "he'll be fine" and again was trying to look at me. I just turned around and ran up the stairs.

I hate it that in these sitch's I can't be stronger in front of him. It's just so hard not only to give S to him for the first time...but also knowing that he's bringing him to meet his family and I should be there too. It's not right...it is not right to do this to children so young without ever having looked at an alternative. Damn him.

Anyway, he was back within 3 1/2 hours. He had to give him a bottle of pumped milk while he was gone. He said he was fussy, probably gas. He actually said too that S cried whenever anyone held him, but as soon as he took him back he was fine. Yeah right.

While he was gone I had D to take care of. The two of us snuggled on the couch. As much as I wish she wasn't feeling this way, I didn't have to be alone this afternoon and helped it go by. I don't get a lot of time like that with D because I usually have to deal with the baby when I'm alone...so I was glad that I could give her my undivided attention for a while.

So that's my crappy day. Thank God it's over. I am keeping D home from pre-school tomorrow...I hope she's feeling better in the morning.
J~