Still sad but movin' on

[alamogirl]

Hey Monica,

I hope your New Year's was at least peaceful. I pray that this year brings us all good health, happiness, and peace.

I agree with Jeff...hi Jeff...and get it done as quickly as possible. Anything having to do with paperwork and the ex, I always went through my lawyer. Your STBX could be very well procrastinating.

I go through the same thing as you...I still struggle with the "why" of it all. It just seems like it ended all so abruptly. One day, we were outside drinking beer and playing with the dogs, and the next moment he was packing his things. Sometimes, I still play it all in my head...the events that led to the separation.

The other day, I was remembering when we went shopping for his suit. He had gained so much weight that nothing in his closet fit him. We had 3 weddings to attend, and he had planned to wear the suit to all 3 events. He tried on a bunch of suits that afternoon. After he picked out his suit, the clerk helped us select a shirt and tie. I helped him pick out some suspenders. It was in Feb, and 4 months later, we separated. Sometimes I think to myself, "self...if I was planning on leaving, I don't think I would have gone through all that trouble to buy a new outfit."

The first wedding took place on 30 Apr. You know, I catch myself doing silly things like looking for "signs" in the pics. By the 2nd wedding, we had already separated (3 Jun)...we didn't attend my cousin's wedding on 10 Jun. My niece got married in Jul, and we attended together. That was our last "real" date.

Hopefully, this year...I'll do less of that (thinking), and more of looking forward to a new adventure.

Keep in touch :-).

All my best,
alamogirl