You are right. My patience right now is at zero. Between carting the kids, school projects...and just the day to day living I am angry that I am doing this alone while H is at his parents house (they are in florida) ....living the bachelor life.
I hope he enjoyed his party today while d12 and I worked on a project. I hoped he enjoyed his day yesterday while I drove d12 1 1/2 hrs to a swim meet.....ok I will stop...but it is so frustrating. I HATE REPLAY!!!
UGH!!! I will refuel at some point, but right now i just feel like if he doesn't start moving......he never will. My H is the type who can never be wrong, and if he were to come home it would be admitting he made a mistake. I just don't see it happening...
My focus is so totally on the kids, but in the back of my mind I wonder about H. I wonder about whether he is working towards healing in counseling or towards justifying his R with MOW. I just don't know. H is a tough nut to crack and the last time he was in counseling (after his first affair) he quit because the C told him that having an affair was wrong...no matter how he tried to justify it.
So, off to read before bed. It is snowing....and so pretty. Going to take my mind off of my crazy H. I am still standing. I am, according to my C, a hopeaholic.....but I also don't like to be played the fool and I fear that is what is happening.
