Question about OW

[mymonkeybug]

You are right we can't see into the future. I am working on keeping my chin up.

He is still avoiding the parenting agreement get together and any talks of filing for seperation so I am left to believe he isn't really ready to get to that extreme yet and is maybe just enjoying his time to think and be alone and with friends. He did tell me tonight that he would think about he and I getting together for a meal and maybe a movie sometime soon when I asked him if we could do something like that. He shuts down when I try talking to him in person or on the phone but when we text he seems more open. I told him that I am happy for him that he has found this happiness and peace(even though we all know it isn't really all that)and that I don't want to be the one holding him back. However I do feel his happiness is all an act, I just get that impression by his body language and the tone in his voice, like he is trying too hard to prove to me that what he is saying is true when it really isn't.

I asked him tonight if he would like to come over more during the week and his repsonse was that he couldn't since he works too late. Well when he walked out he said then that he still wanted to come home every night to put the kids to bed. Go figure!!

This DB'ing is hard work and I am failing miserably. As soon as I get good vibes from him I latch on and I know I am not supposed to from reading DR and DB. I need to do the NO CONTACT LAST RESORT thing and not text or call him at all and not try to engage him at all in conversations when we are together. Let him engage me and then respond shortly and sweetly then move on. That will be the hardest job to learn how to do.