Maybe reassurance is the word I was looking for. He keeps telling me he wants my opinion and asking me what he should do.
The apartment place called H on Friday since he had told them he was going to be moving in on the 15th. Apparently they had told him to have the power turned on so they could do some work on it before he moved in. They called to tell him that since he hadn't turned it on that it wouldn't be ready. He said that he told them he would do that Monday and they asked if he could wait until next weekend to move in. He called me and said "Well, I guess I am moving there this weekend." The way he said it just kind of made me wonder if it is what he really wants. Maybe I am analyzing it too much.
I have kind of gone into a panic since he said that. I am just worried about feeling the need to take care of him. What if he can't find a job? What if he hates it here? What if he regrets moving here? I mean I want him here so bad but I want him to WANT to be here. I guess he wouldn't be doing it if he didn't want to. But, somehow I feel like if he gets here and is still unhappy he will blame it on me.
I think we need to get into counseling ASAP. He would be willing to go. He is also good about talking about things. Hopefully I can get past this panic I am in. I know this a step that has to be taken if we are going to work on things. ..We'll see if he shows up here this weekend.
P.S. ...I still haven't looked at the phone bill. I didn't shred it...but the temptation doesn't seem to be as strong.
