Tied to the Whipping Post

[Punktmann]

HF7, I'm actually doing great. I know it's still a rollercoaster, and I know there's gonna be some dips ahead, but for now I feel really good.

How are things with you? When do you start your class?

Lately, things were better in that our interactions were very good.

Then on Wednesday she said she thought I had been angry at her for the past few days. I said I wasn't, and asked why she thought that, she didn't know. I think that she might be seeing my increased detachment that way. I certainly haven't felt angry, so I'm pretty sure my non-verbals weren't showing that.

Thursday she dropped some hints that the D was still on, I didn't take the bait, I STFU, and left it alone.

She has avoided me since Wed, and I just don't mind as much. I'm all about giving her space right now.

It should have been something that would have sent me into a spin, but it didn't. I feel really good about that.

I like having some of the old me back, better self esteem, and self respect.

I'm finally at the place where I'm going to be OK either way. It's still going to be a long road either way, but I've got a new pair of boots.

Friday I saw my Atty at the courthouse, and I told him that since the ball had been in her court for the settlement conference for about 5 weeks now, to leave it there, and not call her atty about anything unless they call first.

She had to go to out of state for a funeral this weekend, and my oldest woke up crying b/c che was gone on Sat. I let him call her, and I told her that since I didn't want to interrupt anything like the wake that she should call them Sat night if she wanted to talk to them. She didn't.


I still feel really bad about the kids, but that part is out of my hands.