Just needed to vent - had rough day with D6 - took her to movies and shopping - and we were in store and she acted out in a way that is not usual for her - wanting everything and crying and talking fresh to me. I know it is because of everything that has happened with H and also she told me "Daddy buys me whatever I want when I see him". So I feel like I am competing. Of course I told her no to alot of things in the store - got her some clothes she needed. But she was so fresh which is out of her character and I was driving home and its Saturday night and H cancelled his weekend visits with D this weekend and I know it is becuase he has some plans with ow - choosing her over seeing his own D - and I thought how unfair this is and how this really sucks and how selfish he is. Hes turning our daughter into a spoiled child - buying her love - and I am left to deal with the tantrums when she is told no. I thought well this is only the beginning of life as a single mother - which right now I am. He hardly sees her. Has not asked me what childcare I have chosen for her since I am starting work tomorrow, never once asked to see any of her first grade school work, never asked to see her report card, never asked me about her visit to the allergist - etc. I just started to think how easy this is for him. He is now a single man who gets to be the fun dad every other weekend and not even every other weekend since he cancelled this weekend. I just thought how is it going to be raising a daughter as a single working mother with no positive male role model in her life. Little girls look to their father as role models for the kind of men they choose. How could he be this role model for his little girl? I was minutes away from picking up the phone and giving him a piece of my mind.
