Well, I'm still about to leave, I figure less time around the W right now, the better!She's sick but hopefully not too cranky! Now, why do they treat us like crap? Because they feel guilty, everytime they look at us they see their guilt, especially when we're still being caring, loving spouses. It drives them friggin nuts! So they lash out like crazy. At one point in the summer I stopped taking her crap and started lashing back. In one way, I felt kind of good cuz I wasn't taking her bs anymore but, on the other hand, it just created a very hostile and angry living environment for all of us, I remember telling her to "take the cable bill and shove it up your a$$" Again, it was my fault she didn't understand the cable bill "isn't it your job to make sure I understand these things?" Wow, is she friggin serious!!!! Yup, she sure was. So this kind of hostility between us is when I decided it was time to pull the plug, noone should be living this way. I think the sad thing is that when they act like Rotweillers we feel hated, when they toss us aside like garbage, we feel hated....It's not true, but that's sure how it feels. I've felt that now for so many years that in any other sitch that becomes my first emotional reaction. In the CB sitch I automatically think "why do you hate me", it's now a thought I have to combat in dealing with others because people don't hate me, even W didn't hate me...it's just how it feels when your head is all f@cked up! Lessons to learn, eh. OK, I really will go now! Gotta pick up Sushi for D's BD lunch. I will keep my eye out for any ISD's, but they can be anywhere, can't they
