I picked up S last night for the weekend and W must have gotten the settlement agreement. She looked like she had been crying most of the day, and was very cold. She didn't acknowledge getting it, and I didn't ask.
Of course since she didn't bring it up, I went through the scenerio of what if she doesn't sign, etc...Either way, it really doesn't matter, because I have no problem going forward now.
As part of my personal inventory I have come to realize that the person she is now, is a volitile element in my life. Since I have dropped the rope and moved on, my life has improved so much. I know this is upsetting her and feeding her anger even more, but I'm done feeling sorry for myself and for her and my life just keeps improving.
The other night a friend who has been debating getting back with his ex gf for some time, was reading some book about too good to leave too bad to stay. So we went through and did the questions, I answered them from two standpoints, the R I had with W, and the person W is now. It was pretty interesting, because if you can't answer every single question, there are like 15 or so, then you should really consider running from the R. Even when things were good, I could only answer about 2/3's in the positive. Pretty insightful.
S is sick, so we spent the night in, did some Thomas the train, played with some other toys from x-mas and just having a good time. I feel bad for him, he asks questions, and knows something isn't right. It is truly sad that an almost 3 year old has to learn that life isn't fair or always easy at such an age. But as his Dad, I'm going to make sure he has the best life possible.
