Movie was good last night...ate too much popcorn though so I didn't do the dinner thing. Got home around 9:00 and promptly fell asleep on the couch. Why I have a bed I do not know.
Can't say I did the detach thing well yesterday. Sister called me and started talking about things that are difficult in her life and because of my sitch I could tell her a lot of the reasons why. It mostly has to do with how we were raised and the inability to do recognize it and do something different and quite honestly what we want to do without feeling wrong. And then fast-forward to my current sitch, blah blah...So, I went into the movie thinking of WAW, which was not the point.
Found a couple houses to consider looking at...hard to do without WAW but I do not want to live in the house I am currently in for a long time. So, I feel like this is a step in the right direction. I can at least look without purchasing. One day I'll know what to do.
I often feel like my Grandmother who lost her husband years ago. It was apparent to many people that she was basically unable to make decisions because he made decisions about everything. It is similar for me. I just don't know what is best for myself sometimes. It's not that I am factoring WAW in decisions. It is just hard to make quality decisions that effect yourself and 5D with visitation, etc...so sometimes I just do as before, which I just know is not necessarily best. I know this stems from the continuing saga and how now we all question everything in our lifes.
