Ignore your wife. Her reactions are syptoms of your malaise. You cannot expect her to 'save you'. That is not her job. Saving you is down to you. It is going to be hard whichever route you take but you are man enough for the job I am sure.
You dwell far too much on your W. That time would be much better spent on sorting yourself out. Thinking about your W and ways 'she could' help you is just wallowing. She can't do it. You have to help your self. That screams out from all these posts. You can't help her until you are fit and healthy again.
You have got to stop this pity party. Accept you are just another human being like the rest of us and then start looking for solutions.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength