Stuck in Neutral - MN Man's 5th thread

[phbear316]

Hey MM

Just thought i would stop in for a minute, hope you are enjoying your party!!

I hope it was the best party every, wish we all could have been there.

I have read you posts, and my heart breaks for you, because i feel what you feel, but i am starting to realize that the person who I am married to right now, just legally on paper, not in the true spirit of what marriage really is, is not the person i fell in love with, is not the person i want to be in love with right now.

I know its a hard statement to read, for i am crying as i type it. She is not someone who you want to be with right now, I always look at the glass half full and hope for another chance even with my own stitch. Your old marriage is gone, my old marriage is gone. I am praying for a new one, will it happen i don't know.

SG on my stitch has been asking me a lot of specific questions today and has me thinking about lots of things, good and bad.

You cannot fix her, just like i cannot fix my h, All we can do is fix and love ourselves for right now. She has changed, and so are you changing for the better.
Both you and i need to let go to let, them find there own way, does not mean we love them any less right now. How does that old saying go, if you love something set it free. I let go of my Dec 18th to be with family, upon his return it feels like he wants to go now. either way i cannot stop him. I hope he feels that he has to let me go on the 21st the way i let him go. To clear my head, to get some sun.

Mine is very up and down all over emotionally,(still think he needs meds) last weeks issue, has turned into this week of him being home tonight, to us laughing out of control the car going to do an errand, just like old times. Sometimes i wonder would have it been better if h had moved out? Would i be handling this differently.

We are all here for you and each other. We will be here with each other for the good times and the bad, we feel each others pain. Does it make us stronger, yes for somethings it does. You will see those things. Listen we are at the bottom, no where else to go except up. I have dragged this down long enough here.

Ok so thanks to i don't remember who posted it the just keep swimming song from finding nemo. Cannot and i mean cannot get it out of my head today. Holy cow, all I found my self whistling it or singing it. I was driving my mom crazy today when we were shopping. She kept saying would you stop with that song. Guess i have disney on the brain so that is not helping. thanks it is much better than row, row, you boat.

MM, keep you head up! hope my post did not bring you down too much after your terrific party, Hope to hear about it on the paper tomorrow about the best party in town was for Minnesota Man!!! Woo Hoo

Hugs
PHbear