Thread locked again...must be something I posted to Tostada. Di, I am happy about the text, just trying to protect myself and not get my hopes up. Totally dark today so far.
I am responding to your last question on Johns last locked thread. Yes, I have filed. My wife is too far gone and has brought our children into her A. BTW.. The OM is 67 which is over 30 years older than her. She admits that she has and always will be an angry woman and that she is dead set on a D. I value my family, but her lifestyle of bar hoping, flirting and drunken driving is not healthy to my family. Also, my income may very soon go way up as my company is getting real successful. I need to get this done now before that happens. I am done with her but realize that I must still deal with her occasionally on a friend only basis. I will most likely have many years of watching her life spiral out of control. I just dont want to be a participant except to insure my kids are safe and raised in a responsible way.
John.....it was the tough db bad karma post that got you locked I'm sure....
I'm learning to just take care of me and my kids....seems to take the stress off. Hope you can do the same. Too sick to start drinking tonight. I guess when you can REALLY take into heart the core ideas of DB'ing at the worst it does make you feel better. May not change the blood flow of the aliens on our planet, but it can smooth out your own flow...
W sent another text message wondering where D7 and I were. I did not respond....I figure she can call if she wants to know, she has the numbers. Anyhow, big sports weekend....it is not really GAL but at least my mind should be on other things. D7 is with my mom tonight and MIL tommorow.
Woke up to an empty house this morning. i know people who are now single and would not go back to living with someone. I miss my D7 this morning and dare I say it, I miss my wife also. This going dark stuff is not that easy. I should have tried to sleep in a little.
That's a little premature is it not? I don't want to sound like a psychologist but it sounds like you are preparing to move on....I do the same type of stuff. I wonder if somehow it shows in our interactions with our wives. By the way, I have a yellow lab....great dog....i still feel alone this morning and I hate it.
The empty house just sux...hard not to wake up and notice the walls are the not the right color. Just a big reminder that we are still living this crazy nightmare...I did the exact same thing this morning, maintaining darkness and woke-up with WAW really on my mind today and 5D too...
Go watch a movie or something...go to lunch...just do something it helps, even it is for a short while. Empty house will be there when you return so don't worry about it. Do something for yourself.
I hear you on the empty house. Getting up in the morning is the worst. I'll turn on the TV or the radio just so there's some noise other than what I'm making. I have two dogs (English Setters) and they help, but it's just not the same. I find that if I have time and go running that I end up feeling better most of the day. And that's running in Michigan in January, so you know I must be feeling pretty bad...
By the way, I would suggest rescuing a dog. There are lots of them out there that need a good home. You can either get a puppy or skip that craziness and get an older one. I've done both (the puppy and an older 10 month old) and I would say go with a little older one if you want less work. Here's a great resource for finding pets in need of a home in your area: http://www.petfinder.com
Peace, B
Me: 29 W: 28 T: 10 M: 7 No kids 2 Dogs and 1 Cat With Parents: 09/16/07 Apartment: 10/13/07 Back Home: ~2/16/2008
