Late last night I got some texts from h. he was telling me how lost he is and that he feels like he is being smoked out of a burning building. he's stressed about money and work but knows that is not my problem. I told him I could at least listen when he needs an ear. he really didn't like that answer. he wanted me to tell him to come home. I just can't do that right now. Tomorrow night he is going to a concert that we were suppose to go together to. But he is going with this OW who he still claims is just a friend. Why should I have to be his fall guy? He made these choices not me and I am not going to fix his mess. This may not be very good DBing but why should he be allowed to cake eat. I know he is in a bad spot lately, but I know that a big part of that is because I took the stability he is used to from me away. I have always been there for him and helped him with everything. I have let him come and go and not fought him on this living arrangment or even fought him about this OW. Now I just let him try to figure stuff out for himself and he is not happy with me. And no I am not being mean or nasty about this, I am being happy and busy GAL.

So tomorrow night I am going to the concert but with other people and might run into him with OW. It shoukd be interesting to say the least. But I will have the support of at least 5 good friends with me. I am going to have a good time. There are 3 different singers and I like them all. IT WILL BE FUN.


Me:32
H: 34
T: 12 YEARS
M: ALMOST 5
S: 8
D: 4
S: 14 (OTHER R)
SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it)
NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants)
MOVED HOME 12/01/08
I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans