That's what scares me, not knowing what to believe.
Frank - right now you cannot trust anything you are thinking. And don't "trust" anything we say here either, b/c you are only reading words and you cannot process now.
Right now there is no "believe".
You are like the guy who has been on a drunk for a week and is looking for the car keys with a blood level of .25 - you cannot think straight.
So do not try to solve this problem now.
Put it aside. Get your mind off it. "Sober up" first (even though you are not using booze you are "drunk" in depression and masochistic thoughts).
Do something positive this weekend. We don't care what it is. Set it as a gosl. Do it. And celebrate the accomplishment.
Pity party - been there, done that, many times. Do it. Don't beat yourself up for being less than "perfect".
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Help me to give up on my marriage. It's over and I destroyed it.
You came to the wrong place to hear that from us my friend.
