Take a step in a positive direction FOR YOU of ANY kind. Use what's left of your strength and drive to take that step and beat the living hell out of accomplishing that step.
There's WAY too much thinking going on here, and not nearly enough action.
You've fulfilled nearly every new DB'er cliche I think in this one thread. And they are cliches because almost all of them involving thinking way too much and way too wrong, and almost all of them lead nowhere positive.
I'm sorry to even presume to post to you. You've been the rock for many of the people on this board that I admire most. I've learned from your words.
I believe your wife believes she is done. But I don't believe her.
I also believe that it's neither here nor there right now.
Frank needs to do something for him. Something that inspires you, something that relaxes you, something that gives you a sense of accomplishment. Mostly something that keeps you from staying in this contemplative mode where you can analyze and re-analyze every facet of your life.
I read the parts of your life you have shared, and I can see how you have always done for others, tried your best to protect and help. But the strength and drive you possess seem to cause you to feel your failures far more than your successes. And now you are depleted physically, emotionally, spiritually. Before any of the rest of your life can be made better, some of those wells need to be filled again.
Your wife is not running off. Your marriage is going nowhere anytime soon. Take the time to tend to yourself.
What's left when you're back is what's left Frank.
The truth is, you can't stop any of these other events right now anyway.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
