Thanks luvhubby. I hadn't realized that my despair was showing in my posts, but you're absolutely right - I had a lot of hope initially. But it seems to fade a little bit every day. I'm a very "capable" person - I've always been able to do about anything I've ever set my mind to. So it's hard on me that I'm basically powerless to fix the one issue in my life that I'd most like to fix. I'm also a very honest person so I prefer to handle things in an upfront manner - I don't like resorting to reverse psychology to make my wife want me again.
I love my wife so much and I really want her to be happy. I don't want to do anything to make her miserable or to make her think that I don't love her or need her. I just want to be happy too.
